A Question with No Answer

Tonight while waiting for my favorite meal at my favorite restaurant, I was sitting with my in-laws, and I got asked a very important question. A question that I can't supply an answer for. A question that made my mind go blank, and still, many hours later, I don't have a good response for it.

"What will you do when Scott is in the Navy"

I have many responses, just no good ones. Like "cry a lot", "sit at home alone", or "drink a lot of beer and watch re-runs of The Nanny on TV Land".

What will I do? In all reality, my smart ass answers are probably what's going to happen. I have never felt more alone than when we moved to Utah. I miss constant friends, I miss friends who just want to hang out. Everyone needs a reason, something to accomplish when they're out, like dinner, shopping, or drinking. What ever happened to companionship? I miss friends who I really feel comfortable saying that they're my family. I have no support group here. And when Scott is gone through Thanksgiving, Christmas, and New Year, I will defiantly be living up to my pathetic answers.

What doesn't kill me will make me stronger, and being alone certainly won't kill me, it will only make me a tougher woman. And I'll come out a better person for it.

Happy Birthday!

I want to say Happy Birthday to my future sailor! It has been an incredible year, where you've accomplished SO much. We've had many highs and lows, but right now I can only recall the highs. Like you losing 60lbs to join the Navy. Getting sworn in at MEPS. Helping you every night memorize you sailors creed, general orders, alphabet, terminology and so much more that I even know them. Adding a new puppy to our family. Weight pulling Morticia. And now to complete the year, in November I will get that call from boot camp, telling me that you are now a United States Sailor. Its so thrilling, and so scary at the same time, just like the ups and downs of our year.

I'm so excited for the year to come, where I know you will accomplish so much more.

Happy Birthday to my baby, I love you more than words can express.